Last night was my last night of being on call, and the phone rang and woke me up at 2am with a technical issue in Mumbai. I staggered to my computer and struggled for over an hour to fix the problem. I managed to fall asleep again for a little while after that, and when my alarm woke me up this morning, I was in Exhaustion Hell.
I was too tired to make a smoothie. I got a fast food breakfast and two packs of Twizzlers instead. Today, my Diet Tracker is a Binge Tracker again. But it’s going to be honest. Tonight, I am finally free from the on call phone, and I’m going straight from work to the grocery store.
My next on-call week is in March, and I will be prepared. I will make sure I have plenty of healthy but delicious food in my house and lunches for work. I will find a way to exercise. I will make early bedtimes a priority, especially since I can’t predict if that damn phone will ring and wake me up.
But for right now, my priority is surviving the day without binging my way into a heart attack or falling asleep at my desk. I will make it. And tomorrow will begin a new day of better eating and exercise. I will not let this job kill me.