December 30, 2010
Thursday, December 30, 2010 at 12:23 AM filed under Weight Loss postings
I felt very confident today when I looked down at the scale and saw that I have lost 50 pounds.... I still can't shake the feeling of where do I go from here? What do I do now? Even though I am more aware of what I am eating now and I exercise more often I still feel anxious a lot of the time. I've been so negative on myself for so long that instead of being my own cheerleader I am at times my own saboteur.
I am pleased and surprised that I made it through thanksgiving and christmas without ...
December 17, 2010
Friday, December 17, 2010 at 9:54 PM filed under Weight Loss postings
I had a major slip yesterday and ate six mini chocolate chip cookies. I paid for it by not being able to do a quality workout and felt really bad physically for the rest of the day. I started out today doing fine with an omlette with spinach and cheese. I started slipping again when I had a pancake with my husband. (For whatever reason I thought that spending time with him was more important than staying on my food plan) My lunch was OK. (Turkey sandwich with out bread) My dinner was where I tot...
December 15, 2010
Wednesday, December 15, 2010 at 10:58 PM filed under Weight Loss postings
I'm feeling very anxious today. I got into it with a co-worker on why I should be proud of the progress that I have made. Unfortunately my weight is something that I hide behind and if it is not there anymore how will I protect myself. So of course I lashed out the only way I know how... by being mean. I don't feel I have a right to be proud of what I have done because it is such a small amount in the scheme of things. I also don't have any goals set so that I won't have to feel anything if I ha...
November 27, 2010
Saturday, November 27, 2010 at 2:28 PM filed under Weight Loss postings
I feel OK today. I was a little disappointed that our swim instructor didn't show up this morning for class. We just basically bounced around on our own for 45 minutes. I made up for it in the gym with my own workout. I was planning to do that anyway but maybe this way I had more in me for the workout. I worked out my legs today. Thank God it wasn't abdominal workout day because I totally hate that. It is by far my weakest area.
I'm slowly beginning to notice a change in my body. I don't want...
November 16, 2010
Tuesday, November 16, 2010 at 12:02 AM filed under Weight Loss postings
Tomorrow I "graduate" from the diet of hope program.... I'm so scared of beginning the rest of the journey without weekly supervision. There are so many people who I have invited to view my progress on this journey that I'm afraid to let them down. I know that I'm supposed to be doing this for me but I'm so scared of failing because I've done it so many times in the past. My preoccupation with food has become so overwhelming that I don't have cravings anymore. I'm just afraid to eat at all now. ...
November 14, 2010
Sunday, November 14, 2010 at 4:06 PM filed under Weight Loss postings
I am now 4 pounds away from losing 10 percent of my total body weight! I should feel more positive about the progress that I have made in the last 4 months but I still can't seem to look beyond the day...
Since July 2010
41 pounds lighter
Was taking 5 separate medications (2 for Diabetes, 1 for High blood pressure, 1 to reduced water retention and 1 high cholesterol. Now taking 1.5 medications ( 1 for Diabetes and 1/2 a pill for water retention)
Able to wear clothes that are 2 sizes...
November 10, 2010
Wednesday, November 10, 2010 at 2:21 PM filed under Weight Loss postings
Technically this is week 7 on a six week program. I can't wait to be off of this program. I want to feel like I have more control over my life. I feel like I'm ready to tackle it now. The sad thing is that I don't think that I will be able to eat bread any longer. For me this is not really a sad thing it is more of an inconvenience. I'm looking forward to eating cheese again.... I know that I need to completely change how I eat in order to be successful and I don't want to regain the weight ...
November 6, 2010
Saturday, November 6, 2010 at 9:57 AM filed under Weight Loss postings
I'm going back to the gym today! Hurray!!! I'm going for the swim aerobics class and maybe to do some weights if I arrive early enough. Getting back into working out is going to be very hard but I know I have to do it if I'm going to be successful. Anyway, I've always enjoyed being in the pool and I get to go to the hot tub after and my hip will feel great!
Well, I did the water aerobics class and it felt great! There was a new instructor there and apparently she likes to kick it up a notch. ...
November 4, 2010
Thursday, November 4, 2010 at 12:56 PM filed under Weight Loss postings
I missed this weeks doctor visit so although it is officially week 6 of the program I don't feel very official without seeing him..... But whatever. I have lost 21 pounds so far and I'm excited and scared for the next step I bought a book from Bob Harper from the biggest loser show to assist me with the next steps. I am not a fan of working out but the reality is that I need that part in addition to the food changes to succeed. I am trying to remember what it was like to be smaller and I someh...
October 29, 2010
Friday, October 29, 2010 at 10:00 PM filed under Weight Loss postings
I'm coming up on the sixth and final week of the program and I'm terrified of what happens after that. I've been under a doctor's care during this time and have been held accountable for what I've been eating and the activity that I've been doing. I've been a failure previous to this at keeping my weight under control by myself. A friend recommended joining weight watchers after this program to continue with the weight loss and eventually maintenance of the weight loss. I'm scared that public ...