This is the year!

Just simply wanting to lose the weight that I've carried for whatever seems like forever. I feel like I've tried everything....but deep down inside, when I actually think about it, I know that I have not tried enough. I was with a guy for approx. 5 years, who basically cause me so much stress that I was over eating, and eating alot of bad things...finally, i left him (over 2 years now) and I had lost 20 lbs post breakup that year. fortunately I met the man of my dreams....but then the weight loss slowed down.....and now this year I have started to put more on...getting even back close to my original top weight of 180 lbs....I now weigh 172, which was measured a few days ago at my Doctor's office.....how awful do i feel being back at this weight, even thought I am so happy with the rest of my life. I guess i eat when i have emotions....whether they be sad ones or happy ones....and then i eat when i am bored....either way. I feel that this is my year to change....i am so sick of it, I'm tired of the weight i carry in one awful spot. My Stomach! yuck....i'm tired of being constantly asked if I am pregnant! I just want to feel  good about my body for once! And feel happy and healthy and motivated. And mostly feel good  about the future and how i will be healthy for my family. On top of that, i just want to feel good in a bikini, and I want to look great for my best friends wedding in June this year as I stand as her Maid of Honnor. So this is just me, trying to start my new life....and setting it straight that this is it, no looking back!