I have been heavy since the second grade... at least thats when I remember getting teased and feeling different... I got glasses that same year and became very shy. I continued to get larger and larger all through my schooling experience.... I never dated, I hadnt even kissed a boy till after highschool. No boys asked me to dances. you know the usual for big girls in my situation. The hard part was I had several brothers and sisters, and thery were ALL thin, and popular and got to enjoy school to the fullest... I envied all of them sooo much.
After Highschool I got sick, really sick. and was diagnosed with Crohns disease. I lost 60 lbs in 3 months. and almost died. but that only brought me half way to my goal wieght. its been a rollarcoaster eversince. having lost so much weight men started showing interested in me... I had never had that before, I didnt know how to react... so I got married to almost the first guy I met, and had two babies.... I love my children dearly, and believe things happen for a reason. I am now divorced obviously, and getting remarried 4 years later. As for my weight, it has gone back and forth through pregnancies etc. but I have never been able to get below a certain mark.... My Dr.s even told me that with my condition it is really hard to keep weight on.... apparently I am the exception to that rule!! because 10 yrs later I am still struggling with weight issues. Something else that really bothers me. is I have excess skin and I feel like my whole body is one big stretchmark...not attractive! I just want to feel comfortable being me. This affects me everyday, and has for the last 20 yrs. I might not meet my goals for my wedding in Jan... But shortly there after I will, and I will NEVER be in this place again!!!!