My Thoughts

First and for most, I'm so grateful to GOD for helping me. Thanks to HIM, I've consistantly ran 2.5 - 3 miles non stop. Like with most of us, doesn't matter whether you're first starting out, have gotten to where I'm at, or are in the higher mileage groups; WE ALL experience those negative mind battles. Those mental battles you have with yourself when you're hearing one voice telling you "Yeah, sure you've worked hard and you deserve to take a walk break." or "C'mon, just one walk break won't hurt you", but then the other voice kicks in....your voice of motivation, determination...the positive voice that doesn't want you to give in; telling you "NO, you can do it! KEEP IT UP! Don't stop now!" For me, when I've in the middle of those mental battles I turn to GOD. I pray for HIS help, HIS strenght...I pray for him to keep pushing me along; and as long as I keep trusting in HIM, he always comes through.

Today, I'm struggling with another kind of battle. An issue with negative comments or negative critisim. This is VERY emotionally draining for me and top it off with me sabitaging my own body by not drinking enought water and it's just too much at times. So, today...1. I need to make sure I make myself drink WATER, 2. ask GOD for help in this area of my life 3. Get what needs done, done and try to do more to avoid the negative comments or negative crits. 4. Stop looking and wishing for the positive comments or positive crits and learning to be happy with ME and what I know I've done...ALL this must come first today before I even think about completing a run.

Will I even have the energy for it, because I truly don't have it right now. :(