psycological and physical fitness

:(  Well I am here 3 weeks later from starting my cycle II.  I was horrible.  I stayed within 5 lbs up and down the whole time but ate all the crap I wasn't supposed to like ice cream, girl scout cookies, hamburgers, and pure junk.  Thinking I would get back to it tomorrow, tomorrow came and same crap.  The psychological cycle would continue until I decided last week to stop and reset.  Today I start again with a fresh outlook.  My boyfriend told me I looked heavier and that had me thinking I needed to get with it.  I didn't understand then and felt hurt by his comment wondering why he fell in love with me 40lbs heavier but now he acts disgusted.  It wasn't that at all.  He was trying to get me to see how I wasn't following my own rules I put into place for myself for this diet.  That I wasn't going to make my goals if I didn't get back into the game.  I know it was kinda of rude the way he said it.  But what do you expect from MEN.....  LOL  they are simple minded creatures when it comes to relationships and I know my honey would never intentionally want to hurt my feelings.  I actually thank him with all my being for opening my eyes to how I was eating the last few weeks.  I am back and ready for the next 40 lbs to come off.